ReaLiTy iS BeTTeR tHaN a dReaM

LoooooNg TiMe

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 08:00:01 GMT

havent done this in years!!!!!! im not gunna completely update yet... because i dont feel like it.. but for sure later this week... see ya hoes!!

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 01:36:59 GMT

well today i came home early from skool.. i felt like shit.. i was hot.. eyes were watery.. shaking.. got the chills.. scary stuff.. i came home n fell asleep.. and when i woke up my fever was gone thank god.. i feel a lot better now.. but i missed that econ test and i didnt turn in my psychology.. whoops.. o0o well

well this weekend should be another fun one.. tomorrow josh is probably gunna come pick me up and were gunna go eat dinner.. i think im gunna take him shopping for his birthday present.. cuz i dunno what to get him.. i think we should go cologne shopping.. just fer fun.. but i know what he NEEDS.. i dont know about that one though..

saturday im going to the joseph dance.. gay stuff.. but i get extra credit and josh gets to goOoo.. yaaaay... i dont think we're gunna b there all that long.. its our anniversary.. again! yaaaay.. fun stuff.. this one came purdy fast.. o0o! u wanna see what we made... well our monkies.. LooKiE

i like em! Ü

well im excited.. i get to see him.. havent seen him since sunday.. *sigh* long time.. well.. maybe ill see some of yous at the dance.. later hoes!!

ToO CuTe

the best friday eVeR!!

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 17:30:57 GMT

skool this week was gay.. boring as hell.. and i dont think im startin school on the right foot.. i failed like every quiz or test that i had.. even the one i was actually expecting to pass.. kinda pisses me off.. i guess... my fault.. fucker

i was waiting all week for yesterday.. and its already over = ( i had a great time yesterday with josh.. i came home from school.. and then he came over a few minutes later.. and we made lunch since there was nothing to just eat.. it was quite a mess.. especially the boy.. sheesh.. then after i got ready to leave we went to his house and fell asleep.. for a whole like 5 minutes.. theeen.. his mom came home.. he ate.. and... then we left to go to the football game.. jeez.. i dunno wut happened to football games.. but they sure as hell arent exciting.. well the GAME is.. but the crowd there is full of people ive never seen in my life.. n e who.. back to my awesome day.. after the game me n josh went to get something to eat.. and then we went back to my house to do homework.. yes homework.. not "homework"... thats to you julie.. Ü but yea.. we got to my house at about 9:45 or 10.. i yelled at my dad... cried b cuz of my dad.. then bobby got home and me n josh started our homework.. and he left later.. so saaaad.. i miss my baby already..

its okay though.. i get to see him today.. Ü quince practice.. fun stuff.. but yeaa.. i hope todays fun and not toooo hot.. well.. ima go clean my room.. later hoes

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 19:38:40 GMT

this song makes me teary eyed just thinking about it.. i know ive gotta few years.. but its so true.. the hardest parts gunna be when my dad steps away and my prince charming takes his place...

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over…gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

sorry.. but its just one of those days

wut can i say..

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:05:00 GMT

havent updated in a while.. just been busy... doing nothing.. now its back to that school schedule of school and nothing until the weekend comes around.. sux.. i hate my classes.. i either have a boring teacher or the class just sux.. wait.. or an annoying teacher.. this last years gunna be really boring.. i can feel it already

this week i went to go look at cars and went shopping for some socks for school.. yes i got the socks at the mall marisa.. Ü

friday was awesome.. *sigh*... saturday josh had a baseball game at 8.. my dad dropped me off.. watched the game till about 11.. then went to his house for quince practice.. hung out.. went grocery shopping for food for his dorm.. THEN! we went... dun dun dun... golfing.. wut a joke.. me golfing.. yea about 46 over par.. 9 holes.. LoL.. sad stuff

yesterday josh had another early morning game cuz he won saturday.. hot as hell.. gotta tan.. then found out that he had another game later that day.. so we went 2 his house to eat.. laid down.. fell asleep for an hour.. at least.. woke up.. realized it was 20 minutes to game time.. so we got up n left faster than fast.. aaaand the boys won again! yaaay.. big trophy.. THEN.. i came home.. sad sad

o0o im dark i like it.. Ü today im going to my aunts house for a barbeque.. swimming toooooo... yuckie bathing suit.. possibly might see josh.. not gettin my hopes up with that though.. gotta do some reading too.. sux..

but yea i had a purdy good weekend.. and i hope this weeks fun and goes by fast.. talk to u hoes later!

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 04:05:44 GMT

wHo HaS cLaSSeS WiTh Me?!?! LeT Me kNoW!!!

1st SeMeSTer
A Foods and nutrition
B English (Cartagena)
C Christian Voc.
D Statistics
E Economics
F Psychology

2nd SeMeSTeR
A Child Dev.
B World Religions
C Drama II
D Statistics
E US Govt
F English IV

oMg!!! wHaT a DaY!!!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 05:57:17 GMT

okay okay.. so today.. woke up.. did absolutely nothing except watch tv and read my summer reading book.. then at 4 i jumped in the shower cuz my dad n brother were going to go to the movies.. and they were gunna drop me off at the mall.. i was really lookin for some cute new undies.. but i couldnt find the ones that i wanted.. so sad.. so i basically got nothing.. got home at around 7:30... josh called me at 8.. omg sOooOo fun.. if u really really wanna know what happened.. just ask.. god im awesome though.. huh babe?!? i was proud of me.. but yeaa.. today was a good day.. and tomorrow morning im gunna go watch josh play baseball.. YaaaaY!! fun times.. tomorrow should be a good day too.. cuz i get to c him.. *sigh* i need to get a picture of that monkey up.. AND i have to take pictures of josh tomorrow.. cuz i havent taken pictures since sea world.. and that ended up not working

well me marisa andrew and josh are scheduled to go to the aquarium on tuesday.. i really hope we go.. cuz ive never been there.. theres a lot we can do after too.. like go to the pike or shoreline village.. so that should be fun.. im excited..

well joshs cd is almost done.. so im gunna goOoO.. ill talk to u later.. call me n we can hang out!! im gunna take a lot of time off work this week since its my last week of vacation.. gotta make it good.. well LaTeR HoEs!!

sigh

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 03:41:15 GMT

well today started off purdy good.. woke up early... called the college about some books.. found the book online.. made me some bacon n eggs.. and then.. my aunt showed up.. so i showered.. went to get my books.. then went to lunch with my aunt and grandma

after that headed to work.. kinda gotta lot done.. good day.. i was purdy happy all day.. but then i got off work.. and it kinda sux.. i want the old days back again.. i hate coming home to nothing.. the only thing that makes me happy here is the dog.. and of course the monkey

yesterday was me n joshs anniversary.. a year n 4 months.. crazy.. i had fun at downtown disney.. always do.. we made each other monkeys.. too cute

i started reading my summer reading book.. read a page n got bored.. i decided to read in my room. so i went to my room and remembered that its a mess.. and thats y i havent been sleeping in it.. so i started cleaning and started putting stuff away... *sigh*.. now im here.. and im gunna go try to read and hope i dont fall asleep

hey if n e 1s not doing n e thing tomorrow.. i wanna go to the aquarium!! haha but n e other ideas?? let me know

i was bored, so...

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 04:17:11 GMT

i decided to look up my horoscope on yahoo.. my first one said..

You're in the mood to chat -- but do confine it to light, easy topics. This isn't the very best day to have a serious talk. Dreaming out loud about a cruise or a seaside vacation, however, would work just fine.

my love one said...

Your intensity and passion are helping keep the flame alive. Don't be afraid to add others into your circle -- new interests and companions will only make you appreciate each other more.

yea when i first read that "add others into your circle.." i was like.. whoa whoa! dont think so.. but i get it

well.. today was awesome.. got my puuuurse.. my OTHER purse.. i havent even used my other one and i get this one.. lovely.. got paid today tooo.. double awesome..

after work i came home n marinated some chicken for dinner.. then i cut bobbys hair.. fun stuff.. then watched some tv.. well time to talk to the boy.. luv ya!

the past TWO days

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 17:40:58 GMT

well lets see.. thursday i went to work bright and early cuz my aunt had a staff meeting.. i finished up the work i had to do for john (co-worker) and then i helped my aunt.. we went to lunch at about 12:15.. then came back.. and she had another meeting at 1:00.. sooooo i waited.. talked to jill on the phone.. and my nina kix.. finally she came outta the meeting and decided to call it a day.. we got a lot done in just a few hours.. so we went to the mall and got me my PURSE! so so so happy.. afraid to use it though.. then came home and called josh to see if he wanted to go to dinner.. he said he could go n all.. then it ended up just not happening.. sad times.. i was all excited.. sOooO we end up going to his house.. lookin at a hall with his mom.. then going to get ice cream Ü yum yum.. went back to his house and laid with him as he watched kill bill and i tried to sleep.. *sigh*.. good times

yesterday we made a very unplanned trip to SeA WoRLd!! talk about awesome!! he said since we didnt go to dinner he'd take me to sea world.. so i called my dad n asked him if i could go.. he said yea.. so i called my aunt n told her that i was going to go to sea world after i got my nails done.. well well.. josh is early... an hour early... so im on my way to get my nails done and hes on his way to my house.. not good.. he goes to the nail place n waits for me Ü .. then he takes me to my house to change real quick.. and we head off to sea world.. we had fun in the car on the way there.. lots of laughing.. i dont remember why though.. we were probably just making fun of each other

we FINALLY get to sea world.. buy the tickets and go inside.. first thing i saw was... SHAMU!!! (wait wait.. i mean "shamu") n e who.. i was so happy.. too cool.. then i saw dolphins.. awww it was great.. even the sea lions were tooo cute.. we saw three shows n then we went on the wild arctic ride.. it was a lot of fun.. too much fun.. great day.. thanks for takin me babe!! i love u! *muah*

i dunno wuts going on today.. hopefully something good.. and if im lucky ill get to see josh.. i wanna get my pictures developed from yesterday!! we'll see!! ttyl guys!

i HuUUuUrT

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:41:35 GMT

today was a long day.. but it was fun.. got up at about 8:45.. showered.. my aunt picked me up.. went to work.. got A LOT done.. so happy.. SHOULD be gettin paid tomorrow.. omg i cant believe a COACH purse is on sale.. sOoo gunna get it tomorrow.. perfect colors.. and my dooney should be in toooo... o0o0o how i love having money...

yeaa jill picked me up at around 12 i think.. we went to lunch at bake n broil.. then we headed to the mall.. i bought a backpack since my brother stole mine.. then i got my dad some hair stuff that he wanted.. not one damn thing for me.. that sux.. but yeaaa we ran into penney!!! aww i havent seen her in forever.. it was nice to see her.. actually saw her outta skool for once... but yea after the mall we went to.. where did we go?? OoO yea! jamba juice.. good stuff.. then we came back to my house n watched varsity blues.. good good goooood movie..

yesterday was a good day.. josh came over to watch movies with me.. we watched the skulls.. another GooD movie.. we also ate dinner.. brought home some food.. good stuff.. i didnt get to see his gay butt 2day cuz he had 2 "buy sammy a present" pshhhhh.. o well.. ill see him one day.. hopefully tomorrow!!

well ima go lay around as i wait to get picked up.. later!

YaaaaY

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 17:49:21 GMT

well well... josh got back late tuesday nite.. so i didnt get to see him like i planned.. and i didnt get to see him wednesday morning either.. but he picked me up later and we went to see catwoman.. i dont remember what happened thursday.. but i know that on friday we went to the outlets in cabazon.. i bought some pants.. and thats about it.. yesterday we went to the mall and i bought me some shoes for skool since we all had this discount thing.. and then we went swimming and at about 9:00 we got outta the pool and got ready to go miniature golfing with his family.. i beat josh!! hehehe sorry babe.. but i win..

well im finally gettin a new purse.. its been quite a while.. since may 18th.. purdy sad.. my aunt ordered me my purse.. YaY.. it'll be here in a week... well 5 days now! cant waaaait

well ima go watch tv.. ttyl!

just.....a little.... longer

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 18:14:08 GMT

well its saturday now.. josh is scheduled to be back tuesday night.. i hope i get to see him then.. cuz im missin him

this week was busy though.. i worked a lot.. i wanted to get as much work done as i could.. so thursday and friday i worked till about 9:00.. thursday i went to the mall with andrea... but i didnt get anything.. i dont think i can shop with people.. i go by myself n spends millions.. sheesh.. maybe its good that i go with people.. if u know what i mean

me n jill have a date sometime in the next couple of days.. but we dont know when.. that should be fun.. me n marisa wanna go to the mall today.. we'll see what happens with that..

well ima go watch tv.. ill ttyl! luv ya

iM SaD... =(

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 16:38:39 GMT

my baby went buh-bye.. hes gone.. for a week.. how rude.. i told him to pack me in his suitcase.. but he just said "no room".. pshh.. i get it.. Ü but yea.. i just need to keep myself busy and hope that time goes by fast..

i spent the day with him and his family yesterday.. we went to the mall and then to his uncles house.. then to his house.. then to pick up luggage at his aunts house.. but she wasnt home.. so0o0o0o it was time to drop me off.. so so so so so sad.. *sigh*.. i guess ill live.. his plane left at 8 this morning.. its his first time on a plane!!! i wanted to be with him.. major bummer.. its barely about 9:30.. god it seems like its been forever.. the poor kid still has 3 1/2 hours till he gets there.. hope he enjoys airplane food.. yum yum.. NOT..

well im gunna go watch TV and get ready for work.. ill ttyl.. luv ya!

SoOoOoRe

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 17:10:55 GMT

well yesterday josh picked up me and my brother and we went to dana point to visit my dad and his friend.. we got there at about 12:50.. and the jet ski's were reserved for 1:00... just in time.. but the people who rented the jet skis before us came back late.. so we ended up waiting n e way.. but yea.. i rode with josh.. bobby rode with my dad.. and my dads friend rode with her son and her sons friend.. it was A LOT of fun.. it was a litle scary cuz josh knew what he was doing.. but it was fun.. i almost threw him off!!! buuut he held on to me and we were just barely hanging on n didnt fall off.. i got to drive.. man o man.. im a good driver.. huh babe?!? i went as fast as i could.. passed up everyone.. o0o good times

after that we went to eat lunch at some deli.. purdy good.. i could barely hold the sandwich though.. 1. it was toooo big.. like 4 1/2 inches high. huge sandwich.. 2. my hand was weak from the jet ski.. it sucked.. but yea.. after that we went to the beach.. at first we were all just laying around, then we gotta football thing n started throwing it around.. then we decided to play a game.. and we went up to the grass and played till we were all red n sweaty.. purdy nasty.. THEN! we went back to the friends place and went swimming till about 8.. then went to say bye to my dad.. and headed home

the ride home: Ü okay.. the boys got their hearts set on krispy kreme doughnuts that they saw on the way up it took us about 3 exits to find it.. but we eventually found it.. we got 2 dozen doughnuts.. i dont know why.. but we did.. then we got jack in the box.. we're gunna b fat.. or in my case... fatter.. it sux.. gotta start workin out again.. but yea.. then we got home

yesterday was fun.. me n the baby had some good memories.. think i scared him a lil on the jet-ski.. OH WELL! Ü we're even

todays my 1 year and 3 month/15 month anniversay.. "long time" ("i know").. it is a long time when u think about it.. but it went by so fast.. and im happy.. but thats not all that long really.. its gunna b a lot longer.. right babe?!? cool.. well i hope i get to see him today and tomorrow and the next day... SINCE HES LEAVING ME!!!!!!!! hes going to hawaii.. that booger... LEAVE!! no dont im jk.. this sux.. another 6 or 7 days straight without seeing my baby.. ill miss him

*sigh* i wanna go out today.. mall er something.. petsmart will do.. my fish need toys.. lets go!

WoOO!!!!!!!

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 00:48:56 GMT

i GoT FiSh!!! 6 FiSh aCtUaLLy.. theyre purdy... a pink, a blue, a purple, a green, and i think theres 2 orange ones.. but yea.. ill put up a picture one day.. o0o happy day

god...

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 18:21:05 GMT

all i wanna do is go to the mall.. why the hell cant i?!??!

aNcHoRMaN

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 18:08:27 GMT

well yesterday work was purdy boring.. there wasnt much for me to do.. i only worked for 5 hours.. which sux.. then i went with my aunt to get my nails done.. after that i went home n showered.. then josh picked me up and we went to the tc.. first we went to petsmart.. CUZ I WANT A FISH! but they didnt have n e good ones.. and they didnt have the bowl i wanted.. i think i should go to petco next time.. after that we walked to barnes and noble to look for my magazine.. god i cant find it n e where.. it sux.. THEN! we went to c anchorman.. my brother said it sucked.. but i didnt think it was all that bad.. it was funny/stoopid.. made me laugh.. OH YEA!! and then i saw andrew and mark.. that was cool.. i hadnt seen them in a while.. after that.. i headed home

aww dammit.. i fergot im supposed to go to the DMV today.. ugh.. o well.. we'll c wut happens

well i hope work goes by fast today.. and i hope that guy leaves early.. cuz i wanna get that job outta the way.. esp since im not gunna b in town saturday.. me, my dad, bobby, and maybe josh r gunna go to san diego to go to the beach and jet ski.. maybe ill get to c my baby today.. yaaaay.. maybe go swim again.. we'll c what happens..

stay cool guys! luv ya!

yea yea

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 17:08:39 GMT

i know i just updated.. but since then.. bad things have happened.. i blew out the damn blow dryer cuz i accidentally put it too close to my pants.. and THEN!! josh left to go to disneyland.. well the hotel.. BUT STILL!! that sux.. i wanna go0o00o.... stoopid work that hasnt called.. stoopid nail appointments.. nothin that cant b changed..

...i need a purse...

mY MoNDaY

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 16:57:52 GMT

hMM well yesterday i woke up at about 8:45 cuz my aunt said she was gunna pick me up at 9:30... well she didnt get here till 10.. so i got to eat a breakfast bar.. hMM i couldve taken it with me... well i guess i just ate the breakfast bar at home cuz i had time.. but yea., got to work at about 10:10.. i just printed out some things and faxed sum paperwork.. i dont know wut else i did.. but me n my nina norma left to meet my nina kix at hofs hut.. but hofs hut was too crowded.. so we went to bake n broil.. yum yum.. i had me a turkey sandwich.. i think ive been eating too many sandwiches lately.. yeaaa i think i should start waking up early in the morning to work out.. ill try.. lets see if i can do it

well i finished at work at about 6:15.. and got to joshs house at about 6:30.. when i got there no one answered the door.. so i wuz like wut the hell.. then finally his sister opened the door.. i went in and found out josh wants to go swimming.. well i didnt bring my bathing suit cuz i didnt know he wanted to swim.. so he give me a pair of his board shorts and a shirt.. (leaving the bra on) i put on his clothes.. i look like some surfer gone bad.. but yea.. i change.. we eat.. and then we go into the pool till about 9.. shower.. then take me hooome...

dammit.. i just went outside to give the baby food and water.. and i spilled her water all over my jeans... well that sux! well my nina norma still hasnt called me.. i just dont get it..

i want a fish!!!!!!!!!! or 2... or 3 Ü

TiiiReD

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 21:29:47 GMT

well i ended up going to the soccer game yesterday.. it was purdy fun.. i bought one of those long blower things for my brothers.. its amazing how i can make them so happy by spending 5 bucks on them.. too easy.. after the game we went to joshs cuzins house cuz she made her 1st communion.. how purdy she was.. after that i came home... got home at around 11... and me and josh spent about 45 minutes sittin on the couch talkin.. *sigh* we're ToOOo happy.. (naaah thats not possible, cuz ima b happier tomorrowÜ)

today i was supposed to go work for my aunts friend.. inputting stuff.. but he took his computer so im gunna have to spend my evenings this week doing that stuff.. BuMMeR!!! i dont think ima c josh today.. BUT I SAW HIM ALL WEEK!! damn today if i dont see him.. i hope i get to see him tomorrow.. im gunna do my work all fast so i can at least spend a LITTLE time with him.. yeap yeap..

i have a headache.. ill ttyl.. byeeeeee

Nothing you could do could make me untrue to my guy
Nothing you could buy could make me tell a lie to my guy
I gave my guy my word of honor to be faithful, and I'm gonna
You best be believing I won't be deceiving my guy

As a matter of opinion I think he's tops
My opinion is he's the cream of the crop
As a matter of taste, to be exact
He's my ideal, as a matter of fact

No muscle bound man could take my hand from my guy
No handsome face could ever take the place of my guy
He may not be a movie star, but when it comes to bein' happy, we are

There's not a man today who could take me away from my guy

^there ya gOoo *muah*^

wut a good week

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 19:04:30 GMT

well this week went purdy good.. i went to work tuesday-friday.. and me and my aunt decided not to go into today since we're both pretty tired.. and we'll both just go in tomorrow.. i got paid for the 1st 2 days that i worked last week.. and i told my aunt not to pay me till i open a bank account.. so i hope i just get one big check... Ü

well i think i saw josh like everyday this week.. we went swimming twice.. that was fun.. its nice to get some fun alone time with that nerd.. hehe hes my "ballerino".. yesterday we went to a surprise party.. that was purdy fun.. then we drove around n headed home.. i love that kid

today im supposed to go to a soccer game with josh.. if my dad lets me.. i still have to wait till he gets home to ask him.. i think he'll let me.. since im a working gurl now! woo woo.. so wut if i went out yesterday.. its summer!!

on another note.. tomorrows my moms bday.. and she wanted me to go out with her.. but we got in this big ol fight on thursday.. and i ended up calling josh n telling him to pick me up.. so i packed my stuff to go to his house.. and stayed in my room till he called to tell me he was at my house.. well my mom came running in my room when i was in there and started yelling n telling me i have problems n shit.. but i ended up leaving.. and she called n wut not.. i really dont think shes gunna wanna eat dinner with me tomorrow.. we'll see wut happens.. or what duznt happen

well i hope every1s having a good summer and i hope ur having fun! i luv u guys! and i miss u!!

uHhHh...

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 18:52:12 GMT

yeaa the past 2 days have been alright..some days better than others.. thursday i worked and then went to the movies with my mother and bobby.. and then i ended up going out with josh at like 10 to go talk n eat.. yesterday was fun.. i went to wild rivers with josh and his family then we stopped by the beach for a lil bit to visit a friend i havent seen in a while and when they left after about half an hour me n the baby went for a walk.. it was so much fun.. and there was a full moon.. *sigh* yeaaaa.. i dunno wut ima do today.. my dad left at 6 this morning for san francisco and wont b back till tomorrow afternoon.. so0o until then im stuck with the gay brother.. whoop dee do.. well i'm gunna go.. ttyl.. buh bye

today....

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 02:53:03 GMT

fuck it

So LoNg

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 20:23:28 GMT

well im leaving for hawaii in about 25 minutes.. well leaving my HOUSE for the airport.. im really excited.. but sad... im not gunna see josh for a week!! ima miss that boy.. *sigh*

im really looking forward to the beach and pineapple.. yum yum (pineapple)

god im hungry... we threw away all our food so it wouldnt spoil while we were gone.. but yea.. im starving now!!

well ill talk to u hoes later.. luv ya bunches!! *muah*